hello mum...xxx..i need you so much mum ..i feel so lost without you being here .at least before i new i could walk around and see ya if i ever wanted to now i aint got no where to go .and i keep thinking im gonna hear your whistle or you calling my name or cleos .mum im happy i was with you to the end but lately ive been thinking i wish one of the others could of been but i no mum....mum i only want my family around me .is that realy so bad .am i a mug for wanting that .its alright for them theyve got help with eachother .theyve even got there dad and michael .mum i dont no what im doeing wrong with them .theyve only gotta tell me once but only them cos i aint haveing anyone else talk to me who aint in my family a .haha..well mum atleast you no everyones sweet .well everyone whos always been sweet .nothings changed .and there was me .for the last 2 months ive been getting on with my lot and then on the day of your funeral eveything fucks up and since then not one person has phoned me or even sent me a message and mum it wasnt my fault i caught erm /again/but nar there blanking me ..wats that all about a .anyway mum ill go for now but ill be back soon ..love you and i miss you loads your son tony...good night god bless i love you /your son xxtonyxx...