hello mum. i stayed with you last night .ill be staying tonight .i think i made tammy and her fella comfortable .mum i dont care wats wat .but mum i did tell him in front of everyone that if he hurts her id kill him .and he walked to the shop with me cos him and tammy were saying things like ive been waiting to meet you cos your the only one that realy matters .mum i do no why everyone uses me like he was worried to meet me but i no i put them at ease but mum i promise ya ive told him in front of tammy and on my own with him .i just hope shes alright cos i wont put up with anything else haha and mum i told him straight hahaha .but mum i need to let go with someone but i aint got you .im getting sick of trying to hold things in .but you no thats just a faze a cos ill get over it haha. it will take twice as long cos i aint got you.xx.but ill be alright.a. hahaxxx. im realy missing you mum x so much so bad .im sorry for talking like this right now its only cos ive woke up drunk haha and my emotions are everywere hahaha im sorry for drinking right now .you no i stopped all that but mum i cant sleep otherwise .i do have to be completely drunk so it knocks me out otherwise i just cant sleep cos alls i do is see you and think things .mum thats how im copeing but i dont stay in front of my brothers and sisters cos i no they dont like seeing me drunk like you didnt so i drink but once i start feeling drunk i go and carry on on my own . mum ill be with you in a minute ill see you soon .xxlove your son xxtonyxx.